Feel annoying with my friend.

Hello everyone..
Today is my first time to write in my blog.I simply don't know what to write today..But I just feel so annoy with my cousin because it has been so long she became closser to my brother.Okay,from now on,whenever I write about her in my blog,I will write her name as AFP  refers to Annoying Fake Person.She has been living with us since I was about 8.Okay I do not want to mention so much about her.But she is totally my ife disaster.I know,I'm bad too for assuming people like that.But..,,she seem like going to take over my position as my brother's sister.Actually I had three brothers and I'm the eldest child in my family. I just feel so sad and mad when my brother go home from the hostel,he spend his time with her longer than me.Sometimes,we just talking about important matter.Not like the former days when we always had our playing time together. We make jokes together and of course we both so close as two of our brother so little that time.. You know what....My 1stbrother don't even want to hear my advise now.I am totally sad about that.But when the AFP ask him to chatting he would spend sooo long time to chat with her(happily). I feel so wreck:((.. What did I done. Am I totally bad and disgusting person as a sister? Plus,AFP actually not as good person as other people think.We know her so much..She's a super liar.And the most important is she doesn't like to see I'm happy and being praised by others.That's what I feel. We used to quarrel so much before.. But now since I get bigger and bigger we never fight again.But sometimes still have a few arguments.I'm 17 now. And then,she likes to make me jealous  but I'm not jealous at all but I don't like she doing that because it will satisfy her although I'm not jealous..
Best friend,hehe.. bestfriend? I ever had a few bestfriends before but our friendship just ended like that. I really want a true best friend that never leave me.I know,,,the real bff is God but I'm as a normal human,still wanted badly bestfriend among human being..We can share everything including something that adults do not understand.I really want a company.I will always waiting for her,My Real BFF.